Seems like 2017 is not waiting for us to get our lives together. We are either trekking along, trying to keep up, or just still stuck in 2016. I, for one, reclaimed my life back at the end of 2016. Naturally, 2017 started out great! That thing(s) that God birthed inside of me…I felt it kicking me! Signs of life. A sign that God really knew what he was doing and all traces of doubt were leaving. Things were happening (that I’ll share later) that were stretching, testing, trying and dismantling my plans once more, BUT that was okay. With all the stress, surprises and opposition, nothing around me or in me felt great. I knew without any doubt it was all a part of God’s plan; His peace had given me strength and an inner knowing. I was so complacent; I think He actually yanked my ending to my present to get me out of the complacent circle.
At this point, I’m really walking day by day and staying in faith. Then something happened—I failed a test. An actual test, by the way. Something I’d been studying for and investing in heavily. I was okay, because I had a plan to retake it—and I did even worse! Talk about a gut punch. I’m a ruby/emerald*, so I take failure and rejection HARD.
Identify the Spot
The mistake I made was applying that rejection of failing to… 1. Him rejecting me, 2. Him rejecting a part of the plan I know was His instruction, and 3. A complete rejection. Slowly my upbeat first quarter was spiraling fast! The same thing happened last year: I failed the test. I pushed it aside. I allowed the failure to cause some deep rooted rejection.
If you want to know what God wants you to do, ask him, and he will gladly tell you, for he is always ready to give a bountiful supply of wisdom to all who ask him; he will not resent it. But when you ask him, be sure that you really expect him to tell you, for a doubtful mind will be as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind; and every decision you then make will be uncertain, as you turn first this way and then that. If you don’t ask with faith, don’t expect the Lord to give you any solid answer. James 1:5-8 (TLB)
I sat in my depression for a few days. I quickly went from feeling my purpose kicking in me, to questioning and doubting if it was even alive in me. It didn’t hit me at first that I was going through the same cycle/test as last year until this past weekend when I didn’t even want to be in God’s presence after intense worship at my ministry. Since Saturday night, I realized I was in the thick of my death season. No, I’m not dying and I’m most certainly not claiming death. I’m in a new season, at the beginning of a fresh new year—a year that’s the year. But in order to get to that thing, which is rooted deep in my purpose, I’ve got to die to myself and allow God to be champion at a higher level inside of me.
Is your life full of difficulties and temptations? Then be happy, for when the way is rough, your patience has a chance to grow. So let it grow, and don’t try to squirm out of your problems. For when your patience is finally in full bloom, then you will be ready for anything, strong in character, full and complete. James 1:2-4 (TLB)
Identify Your Season
If we think about it, there are four seasons in a year. Naturally, He wants to rid us of what’s holding us back at the beginning of the year so we can conquer the rest of the year. The only bad thing about it is that it is not easy; it doesn’t feel good. Complaining and doubt will keep our spirit suppressed and stuck that we won’t even focus on the promise that’s waiting! You and I have to know that what He’s doing in us is for us…to elevate us! If it was going to be done quick, it would’ve been done a long time ago. The most successful people, businesses, relationships, careers…whatever, happened incrementally! It was a process.
It’s okay to get fed-up in the process! Just don’t forget:
- How will your process impact you personally, your family and your community/business/relationship/etc.?
- What the process is for?
- Why are you in the process/particular season?
- Who will be glorified in this process? You or God?
- When your process if over, you’ll be elevated to a new level!
We’re at the doorway of change, a new season, a new level and certainly closer and deeper into our purpose.
The Lord will work out his plans for my life—for your loving-kindness, Lord, continues forever. Don’t abandon me—for you made me. Psalm 138:8 (TLB)
This is what I have asked of God for you: that you will be encouraged and knit together by strong ties of love, and that you will have the rich experience of knowing Christ with real certainty and clear understanding. For God’s secret plan, now at last made known, is Christ himself. In him lie hidden all the mighty, untapped treasures of wisdom and knowledge. Colossians 2:2-3 (TLB)
*take a unofficial version on the GEMS test here. Great personality test.